feelings of gratitude =)

AS OF TODAY I AM OFFICAILLY 17!!!
this post will be dedicated to thanking everyone who bother to remember my brithday and do something about it!!! =) i shall have to do this systematically if not i will leave ppl out...

I want to sincerely offer a huge "THANK YOU" to:

ADELINE for the ajisen treat, the polar birthday cake, the birthday surprise, the bracelet, the touching letter and the effort put in for the 3 celebrations of which she was always there =)
JOLENE for the birthday surprise, the magnetic calender which will remain on my table top and the cute card as well =)
SINLIN & JASMINE for the assortment of accersories and the effort put in for choosing the present =)
LIYING for the belt and the birthday surprise =)
AUDREY for the ajisen treat, the polar birthday cake and all your well wishes =)
DESIREE for the ajisen treat and your accompaniment =)
JOCELYN for the card and the real comical and unglam photo of me =)
09A01 for the birthday celebration in school =)
and lastly to all who sent me there best wishes one way or another: FIONA, PEIQI, MEIJUAN, BIBIANA, ZHEPENG, HUAZHONG, ZHIWEI, CHIACHENG, GILBERT, SERENE, BELINDA, TANGGE, ZANDRA, QINI, YOUJING....

though i know not everyone will see this post cos more than half of the ppl mention know not of the existence of this blog. but if by chance they haapen to see it THANK YOU VERY MUCH. and if they dun i will still say THNAK YOU VERY MUCH. =)

holidays!!!

for the past few weeks i have been painfully inching my way towards the silver lining of the dark clouds which is the sept holidays. by today i finally saw a tint of silver because tmr is the last day of school. whatever extra lessons and 50 min run just bring it on...its the last day of school and i am willing to take all kinds of shit. Whooooohoooooo...

busy!

TIME...is like the dust in the sunlight always swriling infornt of us and we are just like the child that tries to grasp time only to realise that its an aim we will never acheive...

My days are spinning like a top and it just passs ever so quickly. It has been a busy week and i really do hope that after tmr things will just slow down and allow me to catch up...

time is the only thing i ask for

i am seriously lagging behind and i don't see hope in catching up soon enough...

... ... ... ...

I seriously don't know what's gotten into me
some wire in me has definitely gone the wrong way
i am not as tired as before but i just don't feel good deep down
its just like things have gone really wrong
and i am just not in the best of moods
feeling real snappy and i look real moody
no mood for anything and i don't know why

if only i can turn back time
i might have taken a different turn
and things will not be the same
maybe this way i will feel better
and we all will feel better

my past instincts were mostly accurate
and this time i am sure something somewhere...
has gone wrong
but the question is what where and why? ... ... ... ...

screwed up

what happened to all the resolution and faith i used to have i don't know. all i know is that i just don't have time for everything or maybe its just that i no longer work as fast.

spare me

over this period of time i have lost the ability to differentiate between what's genuine and what's fake. just spare me the agony of trying to decipher thoughts around me and just tell me what is it that you really want from me.

this guessing game is taking its toll on me...