crappiness

today is a sian monday everyday is a sian day
the principal was like crapping in the shade of the grandstand
while we were made to listen under the hot sun
as if he really thinks that what he says is gonna sink in
then the teacher in black keep looking at us as if we did something real wrong
just because we are next to her class doesn't mean she has to aim us
its like her class ain't good kids as well and she is not staring at them
its like so irritating that all the teachers around us like to aim us
as if being in arts stream is super irritating to them
argh...can't be bothered
anyways the VP went about the boy and girl holding hands on the bus
whatever... they are now dictating whether ppl in our school can hold hands
its not as if they can do anything to ppl if they holds hand
what chop their hands lah...funny ppl and thinking
then the principal like super look down on poly kids
as if they are bad kids by entering poly
man what has it got to do with him...i think poly kids are better then him man
don't know whats with his thinking...problematic brains man...fry it
anyway hectic upcoming wwek so i don't think i will be blogging as frequently
haha tata for now =)

STUPID EVEYTHING

STUPID STUPID STUPID PW GROUPING
THEY CHANGED THE FREAKING PW GROUPING THAT WE ORIGINALLY HAD
HELL I RATHER HAVE A RESHUFFLING
i am currently stuck in the school computer lab pouring my brain juice out for the stupid formulative ICNG/CLSPERMS. i have been sitting at this seat and staring at the screen and the grid and all the wrods for like the past 2 hours and i still have another hour to go. then i have to go for the useless and stupid PW lecture. why lecture when the grouping is so screwed up.

ARGH I REALLY FEEL LIKE SCREAMING OUT MAN
STUPID STUPID STUPID LIFE STUPID EVRYTHING
AND I AM HAVING SUCH A STRESSING WEEK MAN
ANOTHER EVEN MORE STRESSING WEEK NEXT WEEK
AND THE STUPID 29TH OF APRIL IS KILLING ME
WHY THE HALL IS EVERYTHING DUE ON THAT DAY MAN
WA STRESSING STRESSING LIFE...................................................

bored

i am freaking tired of staring at a lifeless computer screen and i have doing the same boring thing for weeks. freaking unimaginable boredom...

going bonkers

suddenly i feel like racking my brains

feel like squeezing out my brain juices and think

it just feels that i haven't been thinking

and for a super duper long time

argh feel like screaming as well

i wanna scream till my lungs come out

i haven't screams for a lot time too

i need to let everything out

i have been sallowing so much shit and schoolwork

now i can't let them out

and deep down inside

i feel damm bad

i wanna go watch a movie and find

a good reason to cry my eyes out

argh!!! complicated mind of mine...

tiring tuesday

tuesday today celebrated cha heyong and isaac birthdays today

the wind is just so strong that it took us damm long to light the candles

well anyway i was holding the cake and my hand was damm tired

well at least the two of them are suprised and happy

got my PW grouping today and guess what

me, ade and ly are in the same group ( such coincidence)

well same group as us are jessica and kisnaa

well i am still struggling with my Pi which will be due on next wednesday

i hope i won't screw it up =(

well a lot of things no longer seem the same

i know i have changed as well

i really wished things never changed

i wish i could go back in time and relish those moments again

maybe i took them for granted in the past

thats why i am feeling so empty and lost now

i guess i should cherish the moments now

so that two years later when i have to leave all this behind

i can leave with sweet memories and not feel regret

its easy to say but hard to do

its like nothing goes the way i expected

=(

well next week is gonna be a very happening week

a very busy one i'd say

wish me luck=)

by the way i guess its not only tueday that tiring

everyday is!

out on saturday

oh its another weekened and i can't remember when was the last time i blogged. not too far back i suppose.

anyway friday was a super slack day cos it just happenes that teachers just don't come on the same day. i don't really care anyway. well after school i went for accupuncture cos i seem to have done something to my right hand and all that i can do is write without really any strength. well after six needles i don't think it has fully recovered but it hurts less now.

met up with joey and fiona on sat with jolene and ly. well we went to marina square and ate ryoichi and we did something funny with their tea powder. then after craping in ryoichi for a long time we decided to leave and walked around aimlessly. then we went suntec city mall and decided to go eat dessert in new york new york so that we can have some place to sit and crap again. we were taking photos in weired poses and i think the waitress think we are funny in the brain. we ate chocolate fondue and joey kept going like dry it dry it and ly kept going like finish up the chocolate dun waste. we made a hell lot of noise anyway. then we decided to go out and went to suntec convention hall to sit and talk before sending ly to work. then we went to jurong point and walk around before going home at 6 plus. i took the mrt all the way to kathib to my gradma's house. and my heels nearly killed my feet with like tons of blister. i left home at 11 in the morning and finally reached home at like 10 plus at night. wow long day.

compared to saturday, sunday was boring and crappy.

fiona and joey and all the ply students are starting school tmr. don't be late ppl. and my dear fiona u can't be late on the first day of school and i mean it. =)

i can't think of a title.

well i did the facebook quiz and i am supposed to be madly in love. with whom u may ask but actually i think the thing is like fake or something. haha its impossible. anyway had PE today the incline pull up bar is like super high and i don't think i can reach it. anyway as i am typing now i am not looking at the keyboard cos i am like looking at lying computer screen and haha i think i am very smart to type correct. fine after all this years of typing, i am pretty sure anyone can do it. i am very tired today i think i am very tired everyday. haha. i have nothing to do and two ducks are now quacking next to me. went with adeline to eat the prata at west mall yesterday. it was like nice. then went to sakae to disturb meijuan and martiani. haha found out that they ate quite a lot. okok i have nothing to say. miss cwss miss 4/2 miss everything and i wanna go back in time. argh i am so unrealistic man recently. haha but i still love myself. oh maybe i am madly in love with myself! =)

anyway its jo's and zw's three years anniversary today. wish u guys stay madly in love forever!

hot ass

in school now realised that audrey the smart ass has a hot ass. the whole class is in the computer lab yet again. civics next. yayness principal not back yet. lol today got spot check but i never get caught. thats not saying anythimg cos i never get caught and there is nothing to catch. lol. its a boring day. finished a whole grid for CLSPERMS by myself. proud of myself man. gotta go now. tata.

its the 9th

well i actually have a lot of things i wanna say. i have a lot of things i haven said. but sometimes things don't go my way and there is no way i can say the things i want to say. watched a commercial by the family thingy yesterday, one line caught my attention i have to say. it was something like "its the little imperfections that made him perfect". so touching,if only everyone can learn to appreciate the imperfections of ppl aound you.

haha boring day again, hist lessons cancelled again. i seriously wonder how in the world am i gonna pass my hist like that. i am very very lazy now. feeling so letargic. adeline is playing game. she is always addicted to games haha. i don't feel like studying le. well saying that now makes entering junior college a very stupid and dumb decision, its like i shoukld have expected this right from the start. very very regret now but there is absolutely no way i can get out of this mess now. i used to talk the talk, so i guess now is the time i should walk the talk. well its only less than 2 years left. so i guess i should be able to endure. anyways i am super hungry now. its time i should go and eat!

PS: somehow i realised my blog has been filled with words. i shall try to add in pics if i am in a mood good enough.

sian day

today is a super slack day. i only have like 2 lessons today. ok there is supposed to be three but the hist lesson is being cancelled so i had PE to start off the day and then i have one last lesson of GP later on at 12.30. oh well breaks in school is screwing me up cos there is just nothing to do and i am so freaking not in the mood to do any homework so here i am slacking again in the stupid computer lab. oh well i shall take the time to blog now so i can spent more time physcoing myself to study at home. well PE was lovely endurance running today 20 over mins of run and yeah i think i jogged 2.4km. anyway weile was hyper active and she jogged with me till the end. (haha thanks thanks) i am like super exhuasted now due to the PE. ok ok its just the legs being a little out of sorts. anyway friday is good friday. know why its good friday? cos it a holiday and it means no PE. haha that not the real meaning i know but well its really good for me.

i am tired really really tired. well i think i am currently facing a serious case of lack of sleeping time. i sleep at like 12 plus or 1 everyday and wake up at like 5 plus or 6 every morning. its like i can manage to drag myself out of bed but keeping myself in a good state everyday is a hard chore. haha i have not slept in school ever since school start. i mean during lessons and lecture time. its considered quite a feat alright, cos if u really bother to count i sleep less then like 6 hours a day. and i stay up the whole day without any naps in between. also if u know me i appear to be asleep in every lesson in secondary school though i look like i am awake. cos i sleep in class too much and i have got the skills to sleep without the teachers noticing.

well i have been trying to listen real hard in lessons and lecture nowadays cos i have the feeling that if i don't buck up now, i will do very badly for this year. haha u rarely hear this from me alright.

why why why

Why is moving on ineveitable?
Is change the only thing permanent?
Why am i always lagging behind?
Is life always supposed to be so stressing?
Why don't i feel like moving forward?
Is it just me or everyone?
Why can't things go my way?
Is this the way i am gonna live life?

tons of questions but nobody to answer.
ever since getting into jc, i felt the stress i never felt before
well its not the kinda study stress
its the kinda stress that comes because things are changing
its changing at too fast a rate, too fast for me at least
well i am trying to catch up, am i will continue to try
i know we are all moving on, whether we like it or not
i am not sure if its gonna be good or bad
i guess no one knows unless we get to the point
as usual, this feeling isn't right and it isn't nice
but i just cannot identify why and what it is
give me time, i am sure i can snap out of it
really i will try.

In School

In school now...waiting for civics class. just had a long talk by the principal this morning. he was actually talking bout the short skirts then he went opn to talk bout some random stuff, then he went to say that we are not as good as students from other schools and he keeps repating the fact and its freaking irritating. then he went back talking bout short skirts again and then he repeated everything all over again. like he is even more naggy than my mom and my granny put together. anyway he managed to ruin my day. i spent like half an hour re saving my contacts into my phone and i am still trying to figure out how to use the new phone. haven touched samsung for like a long time.

HELLO THIZ IZ ADE !

ok thats adeline.the whole computer lab is filled with students from 09A01. yeah truly class bonding time. we bond with the computers.

untitled

its sunday night yet again. my PI draft is due tmr. i got a new phone today cos i cannot take my previous phone. it sucks cos it just sucks. i am never gonna take a sony erricson phone again. anyway i did not get to donate blood cos the nurse say my veins too small. whatever. =)

broken promise

ok i broke my promise cos i did not complete my economics essay. anyways today was a very tiring day for no reason that i can identify. i slept pretty early last night so there is no reason or maybe thats the reason cos i normally have late nights. sleeping too much makes me tired too. yes i do agree i have a weird body system but thats just me. well maths lesson was hilarious today end up we only did like 5 mins of real lesson and he was crapping away about some no point stuffs. thats mr mathai for you. ok i am gonna stop here. nothing much to write. gonna donate blood tmr hope i can donate! anyway yuneng says she is not going nafa le. yayness cos if she leaves i will miss her a lot haha.although she always fake pinches me. SRC is due tmr and i am not sure if the way i did it is right, argh its counted so i cannot anyhow do. GP is getting on my nerves. by the way i got 7/10 for my first economics essay. yeah good start. there is PE tmr and i really hope it will not be too tiring. argh i am feeling the stress now, although i am starting to catch up but there is just so much to do everyday and so little time to spare. if only i can have 48 hours a day then maybe i can cope better, but 24 hours means 24 hours so no point lamenting. the road ahead might be long and tough but i will prove it to myself that i can walk the road so wish me luck. =)

PS:i am too lazy to do paragraphing so everything is in a whole chunk.

ITS APRIL FOOL'S DAY!

its the 1st of april today. haha april fool didn't kena trick today cos i think most forgot. for the previous few years i sure kena one,without fail. its either i got smarter or ppl no longer feel like tricking ppl anymore. lol i hope i have gotten smarter.

anyways in school now. in the laggy computer lab. haha the rest having chinese lesson. i also want chinese lesson. anyway the bird we save yesterday was gone, as in not dead but its missing, someone must have disposed off it. *sobsob* its boring and i have two economics essay to finish off by tmr but i am seriously not in the mood for doing it. nvm shall try to complete it by today. i promise i will do it later. today PE was mock 2.4 haha fail by like 4 mins but i got to run with sinlin. so it feels like its back to css days when we always run together, only that there is no more zh now to force us to run faster. haha kinda miss PE in css. anyway waiting for GP lesson and it is a 1.5 hours lesson today. so its gonna be a very tiring lesson. =(

aw i miss the 4/2 ppl, come to think of it it was the best class i ever had, its was a stressful class but it was a fun class.
i miss the front sit in class and i miss sitting next to my partner.
i miss having a classroom to go back to now that we are like wanderers.
i miss the four of us always trying to irritate our partners.
i miss the way we always ignore the teachers when they ask questions.
i miss having to run to the canteen every recess and lunch.
i miss our fabulous teachers and the way they teach.
all in all i miss every single minute and every single second of life in css.

PS: this is a long post cos i am trying to pass time and the time is passing damm slowly so i typed a lot of things cos if i have nothing to do then i will feel guilty for not completing my economics essay. argh i am crazy nowadays.fancy feeling guilty for this reason. haha. madness.