geog test =(

i guess i was wrong after all cos there is still geog test tmr at 1030 which means we will be dismissed one hour later than others... =(
so now i am mugging like hell over my geog notes because i cannot afford to fail any test...
anyway i manage to complete my FA in school today haha i am so very impressed with myself...
things always goes in the opposite direction as i wish they would. well i guess thats just life...

PS:ITS HOLIDAYS AFTER TMR!!!!!

happy happy!

yesterday was a thrilling and dissapointing day.
went to support the badminton team and their marks were like...
anyway it was super heart attacking if u get what i mean.
in the end they lost just by that little bit and there goes our friday holiday.
which means that we will have to have that super depressing geog test.

but today we have got good news..
haha cos for the effort of the badminton team we got a half day break...
haha so friday we get to end school at 10.30
and the fun part is that goeg starts at 10.30... so it means...
WE DO NOT HAVE THE GEOG TEST!!!
haha super duper happy that we dun have to study...

countdown to june holidays: 3 more days!

talentime!

saturday was a super busy day. i woke up at like 6 plus to make pancakes for breakfast. then i went to school to go for a super long 3-hours talk at dunman high. it was super boring and the video they showed was super heart wrenching. i sorta regretted going man. anyway i thought that i could sleep before i went for talentime. but i was wrong i went home and i didn't know how time passed so fast cos before i knew it i was rushing like mad to get out of the house on time. but talentime was pretty fun and cool only that there were irritating people throwing paper planes around. grow up and get a life people. went home and wasted some more time before collasping into bed at like 12 plus. i fell asleep halfway through reading my broader perspective.

anyway i am feeling super reliefed today for there is actually nothing much to do. haha i managed to finish rushing my GPP out by friday. now i am going to start rushing my hist pair work with audrey. seems like i am always rushing things. not my fault u know the deadlines are just too soon to be true. i super dun feel like going to school tmr cos the week is gonna be stressing. anyways holidays are coming soon and i can't wait cos i need to rest and stop rushing out things for a change. though i dun really think the hoildays will be a very slack one. but i am really glad there is a holiday and a long on at that! super excited!

randomness!

• i am trying to finish my wonderful and lovely GPP cos its due tmr and i am fretting over it cos i think he will have a lot to say about it in the end no matter how hard we work at it.
• i found out that audrey's favourite hobby is spamming my phone with her pics and now my phone is flooded with her pics...i can make an album with them man.
• next week is a test filled week and i have no freaking idea how i am suppose to clear all my tests without flunking cos i doubt they will be easy nor leniently marked
• saturday is going to be a real busy day and i have no idea how to be in three places doing three different things when their timings are sort of clashing...but i suppose i will work that out cos i want to be there for all three =)
• about 1 more week to the june holidays and this is one of the rare times that i look forward to a long holiday cos i have some many things i wanna do, so many people i wanna meet and finally so many hours of sleep i want to catch up on!

1.2.3.4.5

1. many many tests are coming up recently...like 2 maths test, one geog test and another econs test. argh going crazy over tests...
2. i need to finish up my GPP by monday and we haven touched a single bit yet...so we are going to slog our guts out at the library after school today which is like 0430 today
3. feeling very tired everyday after starting JC life...its like just can't get myself on the alert...just don't feel like doing anything much
4. i really really miss fiona especially after the MSN talk with her yesterday night.
5. i miss every single one in 4/2...

relief...

i am really really glad things turned out fine by themselves
well there was this tough period but recently things were better
at least my tolerance level went up...haha
very tired recently spent my three days hoildaze in a daze
i slept and slept but i am still tired...
anyway i am back to school tmr and i dread it...
i have to complete my FA and my PW research...
so dead... i don't think i will slp earlt tonight...
haiz...i wanna slp if not i will feel like slping in school
heck i have always been like this...at least i don't look zombified
haha...

...

growing up is something mentally straining
it is when you start thinking differently
it is when you start viewing things differently
it is a transition period where you start to make choices
choices that you will regret making or be glad about
it is when things that used to not bother you start bothering you
it is when you start worrying about what the next minute brings
it is when things originally simple gets complicated
not because things have changed but because you have
it is when you start looking for the meaning in life
i have been through stages where everything is fun
when life every day is a new adventure
i have been through stages where things start changing
where i face changes every single moment
i have been through stages where everything sucks
every moment is like living hell
i have been though stages where i made wrong choices
and the feeeling of regret and guilt engulfed me
i have been through a lot but am i growing up
if this is all part of growing up then i don't think i wanna continue.
growing up is tough but tiring but essential
but if i were to refuse growing up further
will things change?

i realised

realised that i can be quite inefficient at times...
like i have been blanking out a lot today and yesterday...
well u can't blame me cos i slept at 2.30am yesterday...
well i guess i blanked out a lot yesterday cos i was too full to think
i had a really heavy breakfast followed by a BK meal with ade
then after finishing our homewrk.. i went home and had pizza...

realised that things always happen when u don't want them to..
the more u try to avoid them the more they happen
it was proven on last thurs...a most unforgettable day...

ade told me to not look back in anger yesterday...
and i told her i am not i am looking forward in anger
anyway that was just crap...
i don't want to look back cos its not memorable...
i am not in the mood to look forward cos its futile...
i guess i should focus on now...in case i lose sense again...
whatever...