its time to make a change!

decided to make on and change my blog =)

www.yester-memories.blogspot.com

ITS BEEN 2 LONG MONTHS!!!

didn't realise i haven't been here for 2 entire months
dun know what i had kept me away
or maybe i do....lets see...
ok i have been "mugging" for my promos....
then i was rushing my OP...
(amazed at our ability to come up with a video in 2 hours)
then there was prom meetings and all the stuffs that needs to be done...
(totally enjoy shopping for the lucky draw gifts but too bad they aren't mine)
then there was prom itself yesterday.....
it was like amazing and i burned CDs till like crazy the day before...
(now i am sick of "way back into love"....Fiona knows why)
well i think i am getting a little incoherent but who cares =)
prom was great...love it ...but its not mine hahaha
then i practically sleep my entire day away after every hockey training...
Oh ya then there is the class chalet....
truly fabulous and fun...enjoyed it...
ok i have accounted for my absence and made myself feel less bad

oh ya i got PROMOTED!!!!
though its like all Cs but who cares anyway=)

mind turn blank when paper came =(

i think i screwed up my GP promos today big time. i mugged for globalisation like crazy and when i saw the paper i nearly cry man. and guess what i ended up doing prejudice and discrimination which i studied previously for my content quiz. its gonna take a miracle for me to pass my paper 1. and for paper 2, the summary was like supposed to be for 4 paragraphs but all the points are like only in the 1st one and a half paragraphs. and they themselves dun even add to to 120 words so how am i supposed to summarize it into 120 words. anyway i was super glad i am one paper down though i dun think i did well.

next paper is international history which means cold war, global economy, japan and stuff. lucky its on tue so i get to rest a bit more.

off to plan my mugging routine now. byes!

its the 'time of the year'

IN THE DEPTH OF WINTER I

FINALLY LEARNED THAT THERE WAS IN ME AN INVINCIBLE SUMMER

-albert camus

I just happened to come across this quote and i thought it was pretty meaningful. Okay i am now off to countinue mugging for my GP promos tmr so i will be able to unleash the 'summer' in me tmr instead of wallowing in 'deep winter' when i see the paper. =)

tata...

what in the world is happening...

COUNTDOWN TO PROMOS : 4 DAYS
COUNTDOWN TO DEADLINE FOR WRITTEN REPORT : 3 DAYS

guess what i dun feel a thing and i mean it. i dun feel the stress that promos are coming and i know for sure i am totally unprepared. and i dun feel the stress for WR when i know well enough that it seems so screwed up now. i dunnoe what and its bugging me. just when i thought time in sec 3 and 4 passes fast enough, i got into JC and i was proven wrong. time is year is just zooming pass and before i knew it its already september. its like 3/4 of the year gone and i have not done anything much. i just its just the unreal feeling that cause me not to feel the stress. usually by this time i would have been practically eating my books to get everything crammed into my head. but now i just feel like sleeping from the moment i open my eyes in the morning and i just dun feel like doing anything.

so i have decided to get to the last resort and practically line up my room with my notes and stuffs to force myself to study and i shall make my bed as messy as possible to prevent me from sleeping. if all this doesn't eork i dun know what will make me study. JC life is just too toughand i dun know how in the world am i going to survive it.

countdown to school reopen

its the second last day of the sept holidays and i am already regreting not having done anything much for the past week. through holidays i realise time doesn't fly....it just dissapear without a trace just when you need it most....

beneath the forced smiles lies a tired soul....

Promos are coming in like excatly 2 weeks time and the deadline for the written report is like 13 days later. Yet nothing much has been done and obviously nothing has been completed. Its getting harder and harder to get down to study although the stress level is rising. Unknown reasons for sleepless nights has been setting in which results in one not being alert enough to study during the day.

However hard i stare at the gloating "faces" of my geog notes, nothing seems to get in and the persistent sleep bug is just getting in the way. Some wire must have "disconnected" on the day i sealed my JC fate with the handing in of the subject combination slip. Yet no matter how regretful i am now, there is no way to undo what's been done and i have to trudge on burdened with the choice i have presumbaly made wrongly.

3 words sums up life: "It goes on..."

feelings of gratitude =)

AS OF TODAY I AM OFFICAILLY 17!!!
this post will be dedicated to thanking everyone who bother to remember my brithday and do something about it!!! =) i shall have to do this systematically if not i will leave ppl out...

I want to sincerely offer a huge "THANK YOU" to:

ADELINE for the ajisen treat, the polar birthday cake, the birthday surprise, the bracelet, the touching letter and the effort put in for the 3 celebrations of which she was always there =)
JOLENE for the birthday surprise, the magnetic calender which will remain on my table top and the cute card as well =)
SINLIN & JASMINE for the assortment of accersories and the effort put in for choosing the present =)
LIYING for the belt and the birthday surprise =)
AUDREY for the ajisen treat, the polar birthday cake and all your well wishes =)
DESIREE for the ajisen treat and your accompaniment =)
JOCELYN for the card and the real comical and unglam photo of me =)
09A01 for the birthday celebration in school =)
and lastly to all who sent me there best wishes one way or another: FIONA, PEIQI, MEIJUAN, BIBIANA, ZHEPENG, HUAZHONG, ZHIWEI, CHIACHENG, GILBERT, SERENE, BELINDA, TANGGE, ZANDRA, QINI, YOUJING....

though i know not everyone will see this post cos more than half of the ppl mention know not of the existence of this blog. but if by chance they haapen to see it THANK YOU VERY MUCH. and if they dun i will still say THNAK YOU VERY MUCH. =)

holidays!!!

for the past few weeks i have been painfully inching my way towards the silver lining of the dark clouds which is the sept holidays. by today i finally saw a tint of silver because tmr is the last day of school. whatever extra lessons and 50 min run just bring it on...its the last day of school and i am willing to take all kinds of shit. Whooooohoooooo...

busy!

TIME...is like the dust in the sunlight always swriling infornt of us and we are just like the child that tries to grasp time only to realise that its an aim we will never acheive...

My days are spinning like a top and it just passs ever so quickly. It has been a busy week and i really do hope that after tmr things will just slow down and allow me to catch up...

time is the only thing i ask for

i am seriously lagging behind and i don't see hope in catching up soon enough...

... ... ... ...

I seriously don't know what's gotten into me
some wire in me has definitely gone the wrong way
i am not as tired as before but i just don't feel good deep down
its just like things have gone really wrong
and i am just not in the best of moods
feeling real snappy and i look real moody
no mood for anything and i don't know why

if only i can turn back time
i might have taken a different turn
and things will not be the same
maybe this way i will feel better
and we all will feel better

my past instincts were mostly accurate
and this time i am sure something somewhere...
has gone wrong
but the question is what where and why? ... ... ... ...

screwed up

what happened to all the resolution and faith i used to have i don't know. all i know is that i just don't have time for everything or maybe its just that i no longer work as fast.

spare me

over this period of time i have lost the ability to differentiate between what's genuine and what's fake. just spare me the agony of trying to decipher thoughts around me and just tell me what is it that you really want from me.

this guessing game is taking its toll on me...

=) =) =)

really happy that i managed to finish jogging the whloe of the 50 mins run on friday. man it was a real sense of accomplishment for me. i came to realize that although its tiring hockey and physical training can be fun and fufiling as well.

had BBQ with 4/2 today and met up with ppl i haven seen for a super long time though there are ppl who did not come but its was fun. well as usual we were unable to finish the food but there will always be ppl to clear them home or into their stomachs. =) had loads of fun today although for some weird reason i was pretty much tired for the whole day. but i got really crazy midway and yes i did scared a few ppl with my crazy-ness.

sat with fiona alone and talked for pretty long and i really miss such heart to heart occasions. i have came to appriciate every friend who stood by me all this while. i dun need a lot of friends, i only need a few of those friends who trust me and will stand by me no matter what. glad i was really blessed with quite a few of these friends whom i can always talk to. you guys know who you are and i really want to thank and everyone of them regardless of the time-span i have known them. =)

Ulcerous Clan!

Firstly I am really glad Mr Ulcer has decided to move out of my mouth and is in the process of doing so. The lingering pain it have caused me for like a week is really pure torture. Anyway, I school computer lab now trying to get time to pass fast enough so that 3.30 will come soon. times flies when u need it and when u want it to fly, its like inching its way away just to irritate you. By the way I have finally handed in my GPP and EoM which is like an ultra huge achievement for me because I have been fretting over them for like ages.

I am really really bored and there is like nothing for me to do now because I did not bring my econs notes to revise for the test on Friday. The computer screen is really far away from me now and I am seriously not used to it because at home the computer screen is practically sticking to my face.

The other night I was debating with my sis if a saying is true or not. You see people used to say "If you love someone hard enough you would set the someone free and let go" but then another story we read said "If you love a person hard enough, you will never give up on the person" God its like contradicting though both make sense. Haha the two of us are like real lame to be discussing that like in the middle of the night in bed. =)

Ultimate Tiring

Okay, I wanna make a point real clear here. No matter how tiring i used to declare was in the past, it is all in the past. Because just within the span of this week i amazingly discovered a new definition for the word tiring. Kidsread on Tuesday was tiring but overall satisfying. Hockey training on Wednesday and Friday gave me body aches and its making me feel like an invalid. Well PW is really killing my brain cells and i really want to get it over soon.

happy sleep day

wow i finally ended like days of torture with a stroke of the pen. which means with the last fullstop that i penned down on my script i ended my tormenting geography mid-years. well many did not come to school today although i knew ppl were not coming but i was suprised when i found out like only 14 out of 26 turned up for school today. anyway lets just forget about this nightmarish episode since its like over.

we may be getting out Progress Report 1 tmr, haha its the progress report but what if we dun make any progress? anyway now i will have to focus on my PW and try and finish it up as soon as possible and make it quality work. also i have to finish my GP essay outline and i still owe a SEA hist essay. haha but today is sleep day so nothing is gonna change my mind of going for the ultimate sleep!

gotta go now to pack my study take and rearrange my shelves. =) i have got a new rack and its green!

GEOGRAPHY

gosh whats the matter with me. i know i can't be here blogging now but well here am i. i just cannot start up my brain properly and even though the evil-looking words that spell "STUDY FOR YOUR GEOG TEST!" keep lurking in my mind, i just can't set my heart and soul to doing so. so u see the reason why i am here?

anyway i have like 18 sets of notes to go through. and in order to finish the test tmr, i will have to memorise like tons of definitions and processes that i dun really care about. memory work for goodness sake is just so not my game. and i dun think i will get any sleep tonight given that i will be stuck with my lovely geography notes. amazingly i have to finish like 2 essay questions and 2 DRQ and the 2 essay questions have 2 parts each. given that i have enough to fill in 3 pages for each essay with my minute handwriting and like 2 pages for my DRQ each, i will have to write like 16 pages in all if my maths did not fail me and all in like 2HOURS AND 20MINUTES!!!

haha end of the two years of college life that is filled with writing non-stop for hours on end for all my subjects, i will have a mighty wrist and if u ever want to piss me off after all that training i had, remember i have a mighty wrist that might dislocated your jaw if i were to punch you(tho i dun think i will punch anyone)

ok i better go study for my geog now...=)

=)

TERM 3 WEEK 3 IS A TORMENTING WEEK!

lets all be the caterpillar that struggles to get out of the chrysalis in order to face the world as a beautiful butterfly. for that one aim to be better than ever lets all struggle and reach out to be the best that we can be.

reach out for the stars and even if we miss we will get to land on the moon...

midyears...PW

at long last after stressing out for econs test on lovely cost of production for what seemed like ages i finally ended the test at 8.54 am this morning. (thats what i saw on my phone) well but thats not the end of stressing for a typical J1 arts student having her midyears. after mugging and writing my hands off me for econs i am now supposed to 'upload' all my human and physical geog stuffs into my bursting brain before wednesday. u see i really am studying now though i am not really studious but i do prepare for all my tests ok. i am not a good student but at least i am a studying student!

EoM first is due on monday. i seriously have no idea how i am going to finish it off by then but i guess i will find a way. typical me eh. PW is real freaking me out. see by 29th of this month i am suppose to hand in my finalised EoM (note i haven even done my first draft yet) and our finalised GPP completed with suveys and interviews. at well its like in 19 more days time. OMG faints.

we were talking the first impression ppl have on us today and me audrey and ade concluded that if the three of us were to walk around without smiling, ppl would never dare to approach us. haha cos u see we have faces that spelled "come near me at ur own risk" serious everyone thinks i am fierce at first sight and when i say everyone i mean it. well i wanna clarify i am actually not very fierce although i do admit i do have a little attitude at times. =) haha thats what they said i did to my teacher when she asked me up to draw a graph. i did not do it on purpose i was just a little pissed cos i have to stop copying my notes halfway through.

oh by the way i have set my mind on doing well for the rest of the year because i wanna get promoted. i dun care if ppl say getting promoted is easy because it is not to me and i will make sure i get promoted!!!

40th post!

its been a really streesing week and i dun know why i am blogging now that i should be mugging for my econs mid year tmr. haha but i guess i have to relieve stress. =) i am super proud of myself that i manage to cler quite a fair bit of overdue homework these few days. and i did my hist essay till like 1 am the night before and though its ultra tiring but it is super satisfying to know that at least i have done something i should. =)

anyway i am suppose to have econs mid year tmr and geog mid year on next wed. and in between and after there are a hell lot of GP test and i guess after my mid years i really have to buck up for my PW!!!

ok gotta go to start mugging for econs now. wish me luck!!!

ps: the taste of stress is getting more and more familiar as time passes by.... =( and i really really miss everyone especially joey and fiona and jolene whom i haven been seeing for a really long time...

fast paced life

going thru a set of powerpoint slides worth 100-odd pages can really be real torture to my already suffering brain cells. econs test on COP is due on friday and because i don't really understand the topic from lectures i am now trying to go thru the lecture slides right from the start in hope that i can re-establish my understanding for the topic. but when i realise its 100-odd pages, i really really feel like giving it up. i really really have been trying to like econs cos if i don't like a subject i know my grades will be real bad. but i just really don't get it and if i don't get the point made in lectures how am i suppose to like the subject.

5 subjects and PW is really killing me. its like i just can never conplete my PW cos no matter how many drafts u hand in it will still require amendments. and even though i am starting to catch up for my hist and geog, i do know that i still have a hell lot of catching up to do. JC life is just so fast paced and i just can never seem to catch up. whenever i feel i am nearing the pace of others, they just move full speed ahead and i am left behind yet again. then the school just keep changing our lecturers and tutors. they just don't get the point that we do actually identify with familarity and if u keep changing the lectures and tutors each with a different style of teaching how in the world are we supposed to do well. maybe its just me u see cos everyone is changing teachers.

ok now end of grumblings and its back to my ppt slides for econs...

cats week!

FREAKED OUT BY SUPER HUGE EYES LAST NIGHT!

having nothing better to do, i decided to go to the window to stare at the lift landing to wait for my sissy who was already downstairs. then as i was standing intently at the lift landing directly outside the window, something in me decided to look up to the lift landing on the floor above mine and thats when i saw two huge unblinking eyes. heck i saw a cat who was cranning its head out of the railing upstairs and staring a me as i was staring and zoning off at the lift landing. gosh i can't even descride how startled i was. well i decided to close the windows hoping it would go away. but after a minute i opened the window again and it was still there still staring. throughout the whole 5 mins, it like barely moved an inch and i really doubted it blinked. Its eyes were really HUGE and its was like gleaming in the dark.now i will think twice to stare out of the window at night ever again.

well i really don't undestand whats with cats and me. you see two days befor the cat staring situation, i met two cats doing weird stuffs as well. that morning i was going down the stairs to go to school and i decided to skip the lift cos i was running late and it was only the third level. bad move man! with one more flight of stairs left i saw this cat staring at a lizard without a tail running about and when i reached the ground floor i saw another cat staring at the cat above. hell it was freaking to see the cats' staring session early in the morning.

i never really loved cats and now i tell you i am sure i won't fall in love with cats in the near future after these two situations.

well i am lazy to touch school work so i am now reading my broader perspective which i have like haven't been touching recently. well at least i am doing something productive, broaden my views you see.

anger...stress

I find that I am still flaring up out the slightest issues and I don't really know why and I really hate that kind of feeling of flaring up without a legitimate reason.

Stress level going up rapidly and its increasing faster than ever. I am really trying to catch up with my studies. At least now i pay attention during lectures and tutorials and i don't find myself that lost during lessons as i used too be. But the thing is I have got endless things to clear and i can never seem to finish up the continuously piling up stack of things to do.

back in school

occupying my days with endless school work and the only place i go after school is home. PW is killing me. mid-years are coming soon in fact too soon to be true. i am super tired everyday. i have been super tired eversince i got into JC. i was not even this tired and stressed out for my O-levels.

pretty much depressed these couple of days and i don't know why. i can just flare up at the smallest issues and the next moment i will be there emo-ing. heck i am having seriously unpredictable mood swings recently. even i am amazed at my moods at times. but i think i am getting better at least now i an control my moods. haha i think i am just too tired cos whenever i am tired i tend to get super incoherent and my moods are like terrible. haha cos i have to wake up for school super early and i am stil trying to get use to the time after the long holiday break.

heard from the radio that H1N1 cases totalled up to 701 as of yesterday if i am not mistaken. wow i haven't realised that the numbers shot up so fast. taking temperature twice a day is super irritating. its like even if u sniff the ppl aroud you will be like petrified and u can't even clear ur throat in public. its really getting on my nerves so i hope this whole stupid situation will get better soon.

term started!

TERM 3 HAS FINALLY STARTED!!! ITS ALSO THE START OF SEMESTER 2!!!
ade is sick so she did not come to school today and it feels weird that i am going to school alone without her in the morning and @the end of the school day i have to make the way home myself. argh sad sad though she like started spamming me with messages since like 8 plus in the morning and talked on the phone for super long on my way home.

today is a super tiring day because i did not sleep well last night and the lessons today were like super boring. the whole maths lesson was about taking attendance and its like we took attendance for almost an hour. me and audrey spent like the whole 2 hours break doing our AQ and when we went for the civics lesson its was like i dun really know whats happening u see. hahas actually i dun really think that anyone actually knows what is happening. anyway we got this new geog tutor and i should say he is pretty fun and at least better than the one we use to have. and he is also our co-pw tutor as well. GP was all in a mess cos mr chng is not around and the relief teacher is a little "goon goon".

MY SEMESTER 2 RESOLUTIONS!
1. i shall try my upmost best to keep myself awake in geog lectures and history lectures.
2. i promise i will study real hard for my mid-years.
3. i will finish all my tutorials and make sure i am ready for lessons.
4. i will try my best not to be late for every single lectures and tutorials.
5. i will not "keep things in view" especially my homework which if i do so most probably i will never set sight on the homework again.

ok ade i have finish my sem 2 resolutions happy? anyway get well soon!!!

5 more days!

killer history test ate up the whole of my Sunday leaving me only 3 odd hours for sleep and it officially died yesterday at 11 am. now i realise why ppl say that i am crazy when i tell them my subject combination. i started thinking that too when i was studying for the test. and the thing is the test was during the holidays!

5 more days left of the June holidays. no wonder they say happy times passes faster how true. anyway i barely did anything during the holidays and i think i shall have to work like mad over these few days which i really doubt i will. haha

BORED!!!

hey i am here to blog again cos i have to do something when i turn on my computer and i have been to facebook and i found absolutely nothing to do there. hahas.

anyway adeline gave me a surprise call today with some surprising news and well i was glad she called cos i was almost dying of boredom when she called and that stopped my boredom for quite some time.

anyway haven been online on MSN for i think quite a long time. i am just to lazy to go online.

ok i shall stop wasting my time and continue with my history revision.

ps: audrey i have finally tried to do paragraphing but i doesn't seem right to me its like one sentence every paragraph. haha whatever =)

....2 more weeks!

recently i have been spending a super large amount of time at home and to my greatest dismay i did nothing much. dang it. well i do enjoy the many peaceful moments at home though. sometimes its better to sit around indulging in your own presence than go out there and feel so small in the large crowd outdoors. cos when u are alone u get to be just about everything from the best to the worst but when u hang around huge crowds u will realise that u are practically nothing.

well holidays are left will slighty less tahn two weeks and i think i will be freaking out pretty soon about the thimgs i should have done instead of slacking the holidays away...=)

09A01 ECP Outing

yes i do know that it is now 12.23am and i do have to sleep cos its sleeping time considering that i woke up early today and spent the whole day at east coast park. however who really cares and its like i have to finish blogging today if not i will forget it the next day or something. so today we met at JE mrt and went to buy some stuffs for the bbq and we decided to get isaac to help get some of the heavy stuffs so that we can go cycling. then we went and take the mrt and we were supposed to meet gilbert at redhill mrt and thus we decided to "jump carriage" in order to find him but we ending up alighting at redhill cos we can't find him but in actual fact he already boarded the train so we decided to meet at outram park mrt instead and finally we met him without much complications. and we continue the super long train ride to bedok and we took bus 196 in which we saw various jj ppl. we reach east coast park and decided to roller blade instead of biking since adeline can't cycle and we were unable to take a double bike thus leaving only liying and weiqi cycling and me adeline gilbert and yuneng went roller blading. haha saw this bunch or really cute kids who borrowed our slippers from us as part of a treasure hunt. there is this really cute 4 year old who can roller blade better than us. anyway throughout the trip gilbert keep disturbing adeline and we all took turns falling down only that i landed on my elbow instead of the ass which most people would. hahas. then we decided to stop and rest while we chatted with the instructor and after that we went on this really long walk to pit 13 for the bbq. we took like around an hour to get the fire strated before we can start the bbq. the only difference this bbq is that normally i would be standing at the pit barbequing but not today thanks to isaac who insisted on standing there for the whole time. then they went playing truth or dare and there "stakes" were really high and erm should i say interesting.oh yah by the way we saw serene's class also bbqing some distance away from us. we also saw xinyu's class having an outing at the east coast park. =) anyway i left at like 9 plus with adeline when my parents came which thus ended the long day at the beach and i seriously hate the weather which left me feeling sticky the whole day and i really pitied salihin who came in long sleeves because he felt that it was going to be a cool night. hahas. i was in tee-shirt and i was so uncomfortable much less him who was sweating like hell. hahas thats the end of the day and i can't really recall the minor details and thus i am ending here and i will try to sleep so that i can stay alert for the PW meeting tmr. =)

wow unknowingly i have written such a long post....

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i have had enough of slacking my time away at home and today i finally forced myself to do something constructive. well i managed to at long last come up with my schedule for the whole of june holidays and now i am not so bothered about the dates anymore haha no need for memorizing the dates anymore. and erm i am studying econs now cos i found out that if i dun read up on the whole of the cost of production, then there is no way i can come up with the mindmap i am supposed to hand in. and i did do a little research for my PW today so its was considered a pretty constructive day as compared to the previous week. i had insomia last night and i slept at 4am in the morning, well i saw it coming because i slept like 5 hours yesterday afternoon. =)

*perhaps i painted a picture too perfect to be true and now that things are worse than i thought it is rather depressing though i would have said i sort of expected this *

second week!

One week has passed and its the second week of the holidays. gosh its like zooming past really fast though i really feel bored at times. i went back to school like erm twice last week for econs and for the GP trip on friday. well the talks in the morning i have to say they were supposed to be educational but i don't really think i can absorb that much in one go. then we went to sinema old school to watch 18 grams of love which was a super duper amazingly touching local flim and erm the sofas were really great. how i hope the cinemas will be like that as well. then we went to watch the pretentious young ladies in esplanade and well it was a pretty busy play for us because it was in french and we had to alternate between looking at the performers and the subtitles. i only understood part of the play and well be glad i didn't doze off probably because of the constant shouting of the performers. poor jolene lost her phone in the swimming pool today and the person who took it was really well i just had to say horrible. =( anyway cheer up girl yeah ( if u happen to see this post)

i really really wish that the holidays for the poly students will start soon because i really really miss fiona and miss joey and well i about miss everyone and every gathering seems incomplete without them. =)

well i have to go back to school tmr at 9.30 to meet mr hendri to allow him to go through with us our horrendous GPP marked in red. i really haven done anything condutive these few days and thus i am going back tmr and i will do my best to at least get my PW done as soon as possible and in the best possible grade i could ever manage. =) wow just by writing this down i am so proud of myself =)

HOLIDAYS!

ITS THE HOLIDAYS!!!
well i have been slacking quite a lot since the start of holidays a few days back. i went out with jolene ly and adeline after school on friday and we went bugis and i was super tired after mugging for the geog test the prvious night that i was yawning most of the trip. mind ya i slept like only 3 odd hours or so. anyways, i went for the library kidsread trainning on sat at JE followed by going to IMM for lunch. well we sort of watched the guys eat and we all went to daiso. then i took the train to Katib to my grand's house and i fell asleep on the train and i only got down on time cos chia cheng managed to wake me on time. lol kinda embarrasing. and on sunday and monday i was like slacking the whole day awaybecause the weather is far to hot for anyone to wanna go out in the sun. hahas. then i woke up bright and early this morning and finished up my econs tutorial before going to school. man the lesson was tiring cos i felt like sleeping. not my fault u see, it was right smack in the middle of the day at 2-4 who can stand it man. haha i am super bored and i feel that my days are boring just by reading what i have written. lol. i wanna meet up fiona soon, and joey too and everyone. argh i miss secondary school life and its kinda funny but i sort of miss the days in green club.haha. goodbyes for now i am off to tag ade's blog in case she nags at me again!

geog test =(

i guess i was wrong after all cos there is still geog test tmr at 1030 which means we will be dismissed one hour later than others... =(
so now i am mugging like hell over my geog notes because i cannot afford to fail any test...
anyway i manage to complete my FA in school today haha i am so very impressed with myself...
things always goes in the opposite direction as i wish they would. well i guess thats just life...

PS:ITS HOLIDAYS AFTER TMR!!!!!

happy happy!

yesterday was a thrilling and dissapointing day.
went to support the badminton team and their marks were like...
anyway it was super heart attacking if u get what i mean.
in the end they lost just by that little bit and there goes our friday holiday.
which means that we will have to have that super depressing geog test.

but today we have got good news..
haha cos for the effort of the badminton team we got a half day break...
haha so friday we get to end school at 10.30
and the fun part is that goeg starts at 10.30... so it means...
WE DO NOT HAVE THE GEOG TEST!!!
haha super duper happy that we dun have to study...

countdown to june holidays: 3 more days!

talentime!

saturday was a super busy day. i woke up at like 6 plus to make pancakes for breakfast. then i went to school to go for a super long 3-hours talk at dunman high. it was super boring and the video they showed was super heart wrenching. i sorta regretted going man. anyway i thought that i could sleep before i went for talentime. but i was wrong i went home and i didn't know how time passed so fast cos before i knew it i was rushing like mad to get out of the house on time. but talentime was pretty fun and cool only that there were irritating people throwing paper planes around. grow up and get a life people. went home and wasted some more time before collasping into bed at like 12 plus. i fell asleep halfway through reading my broader perspective.

anyway i am feeling super reliefed today for there is actually nothing much to do. haha i managed to finish rushing my GPP out by friday. now i am going to start rushing my hist pair work with audrey. seems like i am always rushing things. not my fault u know the deadlines are just too soon to be true. i super dun feel like going to school tmr cos the week is gonna be stressing. anyways holidays are coming soon and i can't wait cos i need to rest and stop rushing out things for a change. though i dun really think the hoildays will be a very slack one. but i am really glad there is a holiday and a long on at that! super excited!

randomness!

• i am trying to finish my wonderful and lovely GPP cos its due tmr and i am fretting over it cos i think he will have a lot to say about it in the end no matter how hard we work at it.
• i found out that audrey's favourite hobby is spamming my phone with her pics and now my phone is flooded with her pics...i can make an album with them man.
• next week is a test filled week and i have no freaking idea how i am suppose to clear all my tests without flunking cos i doubt they will be easy nor leniently marked
• saturday is going to be a real busy day and i have no idea how to be in three places doing three different things when their timings are sort of clashing...but i suppose i will work that out cos i want to be there for all three =)
• about 1 more week to the june holidays and this is one of the rare times that i look forward to a long holiday cos i have some many things i wanna do, so many people i wanna meet and finally so many hours of sleep i want to catch up on!

1.2.3.4.5

1. many many tests are coming up recently...like 2 maths test, one geog test and another econs test. argh going crazy over tests...
2. i need to finish up my GPP by monday and we haven touched a single bit yet...so we are going to slog our guts out at the library after school today which is like 0430 today
3. feeling very tired everyday after starting JC life...its like just can't get myself on the alert...just don't feel like doing anything much
4. i really really miss fiona especially after the MSN talk with her yesterday night.
5. i miss every single one in 4/2...

relief...

i am really really glad things turned out fine by themselves
well there was this tough period but recently things were better
at least my tolerance level went up...haha
very tired recently spent my three days hoildaze in a daze
i slept and slept but i am still tired...
anyway i am back to school tmr and i dread it...
i have to complete my FA and my PW research...
so dead... i don't think i will slp earlt tonight...
haiz...i wanna slp if not i will feel like slping in school
heck i have always been like this...at least i don't look zombified
haha...

...

growing up is something mentally straining
it is when you start thinking differently
it is when you start viewing things differently
it is a transition period where you start to make choices
choices that you will regret making or be glad about
it is when things that used to not bother you start bothering you
it is when you start worrying about what the next minute brings
it is when things originally simple gets complicated
not because things have changed but because you have
it is when you start looking for the meaning in life
i have been through stages where everything is fun
when life every day is a new adventure
i have been through stages where things start changing
where i face changes every single moment
i have been through stages where everything sucks
every moment is like living hell
i have been though stages where i made wrong choices
and the feeeling of regret and guilt engulfed me
i have been through a lot but am i growing up
if this is all part of growing up then i don't think i wanna continue.
growing up is tough but tiring but essential
but if i were to refuse growing up further
will things change?

i realised

realised that i can be quite inefficient at times...
like i have been blanking out a lot today and yesterday...
well u can't blame me cos i slept at 2.30am yesterday...
well i guess i blanked out a lot yesterday cos i was too full to think
i had a really heavy breakfast followed by a BK meal with ade
then after finishing our homewrk.. i went home and had pizza...

realised that things always happen when u don't want them to..
the more u try to avoid them the more they happen
it was proven on last thurs...a most unforgettable day...

ade told me to not look back in anger yesterday...
and i told her i am not i am looking forward in anger
anyway that was just crap...
i don't want to look back cos its not memorable...
i am not in the mood to look forward cos its futile...
i guess i should focus on now...in case i lose sense again...
whatever...

crappiness

today is a sian monday everyday is a sian day
the principal was like crapping in the shade of the grandstand
while we were made to listen under the hot sun
as if he really thinks that what he says is gonna sink in
then the teacher in black keep looking at us as if we did something real wrong
just because we are next to her class doesn't mean she has to aim us
its like her class ain't good kids as well and she is not staring at them
its like so irritating that all the teachers around us like to aim us
as if being in arts stream is super irritating to them
argh...can't be bothered
anyways the VP went about the boy and girl holding hands on the bus
whatever... they are now dictating whether ppl in our school can hold hands
its not as if they can do anything to ppl if they holds hand
what chop their hands lah...funny ppl and thinking
then the principal like super look down on poly kids
as if they are bad kids by entering poly
man what has it got to do with him...i think poly kids are better then him man
don't know whats with his thinking...problematic brains man...fry it
anyway hectic upcoming wwek so i don't think i will be blogging as frequently
haha tata for now =)

STUPID EVEYTHING

STUPID STUPID STUPID PW GROUPING
THEY CHANGED THE FREAKING PW GROUPING THAT WE ORIGINALLY HAD
HELL I RATHER HAVE A RESHUFFLING
i am currently stuck in the school computer lab pouring my brain juice out for the stupid formulative ICNG/CLSPERMS. i have been sitting at this seat and staring at the screen and the grid and all the wrods for like the past 2 hours and i still have another hour to go. then i have to go for the useless and stupid PW lecture. why lecture when the grouping is so screwed up.

ARGH I REALLY FEEL LIKE SCREAMING OUT MAN
STUPID STUPID STUPID LIFE STUPID EVRYTHING
AND I AM HAVING SUCH A STRESSING WEEK MAN
ANOTHER EVEN MORE STRESSING WEEK NEXT WEEK
AND THE STUPID 29TH OF APRIL IS KILLING ME
WHY THE HALL IS EVERYTHING DUE ON THAT DAY MAN
WA STRESSING STRESSING LIFE...................................................

bored

i am freaking tired of staring at a lifeless computer screen and i have doing the same boring thing for weeks. freaking unimaginable boredom...

going bonkers

suddenly i feel like racking my brains

feel like squeezing out my brain juices and think

it just feels that i haven't been thinking

and for a super duper long time

argh feel like screaming as well

i wanna scream till my lungs come out

i haven't screams for a lot time too

i need to let everything out

i have been sallowing so much shit and schoolwork

now i can't let them out

and deep down inside

i feel damm bad

i wanna go watch a movie and find

a good reason to cry my eyes out

argh!!! complicated mind of mine...

tiring tuesday

tuesday today celebrated cha heyong and isaac birthdays today

the wind is just so strong that it took us damm long to light the candles

well anyway i was holding the cake and my hand was damm tired

well at least the two of them are suprised and happy

got my PW grouping today and guess what

me, ade and ly are in the same group ( such coincidence)

well same group as us are jessica and kisnaa

well i am still struggling with my Pi which will be due on next wednesday

i hope i won't screw it up =(

well a lot of things no longer seem the same

i know i have changed as well

i really wished things never changed

i wish i could go back in time and relish those moments again

maybe i took them for granted in the past

thats why i am feeling so empty and lost now

i guess i should cherish the moments now

so that two years later when i have to leave all this behind

i can leave with sweet memories and not feel regret

its easy to say but hard to do

its like nothing goes the way i expected

=(

well next week is gonna be a very happening week

a very busy one i'd say

wish me luck=)

by the way i guess its not only tueday that tiring

everyday is!

out on saturday

oh its another weekened and i can't remember when was the last time i blogged. not too far back i suppose.

anyway friday was a super slack day cos it just happenes that teachers just don't come on the same day. i don't really care anyway. well after school i went for accupuncture cos i seem to have done something to my right hand and all that i can do is write without really any strength. well after six needles i don't think it has fully recovered but it hurts less now.

met up with joey and fiona on sat with jolene and ly. well we went to marina square and ate ryoichi and we did something funny with their tea powder. then after craping in ryoichi for a long time we decided to leave and walked around aimlessly. then we went suntec city mall and decided to go eat dessert in new york new york so that we can have some place to sit and crap again. we were taking photos in weired poses and i think the waitress think we are funny in the brain. we ate chocolate fondue and joey kept going like dry it dry it and ly kept going like finish up the chocolate dun waste. we made a hell lot of noise anyway. then we decided to go out and went to suntec convention hall to sit and talk before sending ly to work. then we went to jurong point and walk around before going home at 6 plus. i took the mrt all the way to kathib to my gradma's house. and my heels nearly killed my feet with like tons of blister. i left home at 11 in the morning and finally reached home at like 10 plus at night. wow long day.

compared to saturday, sunday was boring and crappy.

fiona and joey and all the ply students are starting school tmr. don't be late ppl. and my dear fiona u can't be late on the first day of school and i mean it. =)

i can't think of a title.

well i did the facebook quiz and i am supposed to be madly in love. with whom u may ask but actually i think the thing is like fake or something. haha its impossible. anyway had PE today the incline pull up bar is like super high and i don't think i can reach it. anyway as i am typing now i am not looking at the keyboard cos i am like looking at lying computer screen and haha i think i am very smart to type correct. fine after all this years of typing, i am pretty sure anyone can do it. i am very tired today i think i am very tired everyday. haha. i have nothing to do and two ducks are now quacking next to me. went with adeline to eat the prata at west mall yesterday. it was like nice. then went to sakae to disturb meijuan and martiani. haha found out that they ate quite a lot. okok i have nothing to say. miss cwss miss 4/2 miss everything and i wanna go back in time. argh i am so unrealistic man recently. haha but i still love myself. oh maybe i am madly in love with myself! =)

anyway its jo's and zw's three years anniversary today. wish u guys stay madly in love forever!

hot ass

in school now realised that audrey the smart ass has a hot ass. the whole class is in the computer lab yet again. civics next. yayness principal not back yet. lol today got spot check but i never get caught. thats not saying anythimg cos i never get caught and there is nothing to catch. lol. its a boring day. finished a whole grid for CLSPERMS by myself. proud of myself man. gotta go now. tata.

its the 9th

well i actually have a lot of things i wanna say. i have a lot of things i haven said. but sometimes things don't go my way and there is no way i can say the things i want to say. watched a commercial by the family thingy yesterday, one line caught my attention i have to say. it was something like "its the little imperfections that made him perfect". so touching,if only everyone can learn to appreciate the imperfections of ppl aound you.

haha boring day again, hist lessons cancelled again. i seriously wonder how in the world am i gonna pass my hist like that. i am very very lazy now. feeling so letargic. adeline is playing game. she is always addicted to games haha. i don't feel like studying le. well saying that now makes entering junior college a very stupid and dumb decision, its like i shoukld have expected this right from the start. very very regret now but there is absolutely no way i can get out of this mess now. i used to talk the talk, so i guess now is the time i should walk the talk. well its only less than 2 years left. so i guess i should be able to endure. anyways i am super hungry now. its time i should go and eat!

PS: somehow i realised my blog has been filled with words. i shall try to add in pics if i am in a mood good enough.

sian day

today is a super slack day. i only have like 2 lessons today. ok there is supposed to be three but the hist lesson is being cancelled so i had PE to start off the day and then i have one last lesson of GP later on at 12.30. oh well breaks in school is screwing me up cos there is just nothing to do and i am so freaking not in the mood to do any homework so here i am slacking again in the stupid computer lab. oh well i shall take the time to blog now so i can spent more time physcoing myself to study at home. well PE was lovely endurance running today 20 over mins of run and yeah i think i jogged 2.4km. anyway weile was hyper active and she jogged with me till the end. (haha thanks thanks) i am like super exhuasted now due to the PE. ok ok its just the legs being a little out of sorts. anyway friday is good friday. know why its good friday? cos it a holiday and it means no PE. haha that not the real meaning i know but well its really good for me.

i am tired really really tired. well i think i am currently facing a serious case of lack of sleeping time. i sleep at like 12 plus or 1 everyday and wake up at like 5 plus or 6 every morning. its like i can manage to drag myself out of bed but keeping myself in a good state everyday is a hard chore. haha i have not slept in school ever since school start. i mean during lessons and lecture time. its considered quite a feat alright, cos if u really bother to count i sleep less then like 6 hours a day. and i stay up the whole day without any naps in between. also if u know me i appear to be asleep in every lesson in secondary school though i look like i am awake. cos i sleep in class too much and i have got the skills to sleep without the teachers noticing.

well i have been trying to listen real hard in lessons and lecture nowadays cos i have the feeling that if i don't buck up now, i will do very badly for this year. haha u rarely hear this from me alright.

why why why

Why is moving on ineveitable?
Is change the only thing permanent?
Why am i always lagging behind?
Is life always supposed to be so stressing?
Why don't i feel like moving forward?
Is it just me or everyone?
Why can't things go my way?
Is this the way i am gonna live life?

tons of questions but nobody to answer.
ever since getting into jc, i felt the stress i never felt before
well its not the kinda study stress
its the kinda stress that comes because things are changing
its changing at too fast a rate, too fast for me at least
well i am trying to catch up, am i will continue to try
i know we are all moving on, whether we like it or not
i am not sure if its gonna be good or bad
i guess no one knows unless we get to the point
as usual, this feeling isn't right and it isn't nice
but i just cannot identify why and what it is
give me time, i am sure i can snap out of it
really i will try.

In School

In school now...waiting for civics class. just had a long talk by the principal this morning. he was actually talking bout the short skirts then he went opn to talk bout some random stuff, then he went to say that we are not as good as students from other schools and he keeps repating the fact and its freaking irritating. then he went back talking bout short skirts again and then he repeated everything all over again. like he is even more naggy than my mom and my granny put together. anyway he managed to ruin my day. i spent like half an hour re saving my contacts into my phone and i am still trying to figure out how to use the new phone. haven touched samsung for like a long time.

HELLO THIZ IZ ADE !

ok thats adeline.the whole computer lab is filled with students from 09A01. yeah truly class bonding time. we bond with the computers.

untitled

its sunday night yet again. my PI draft is due tmr. i got a new phone today cos i cannot take my previous phone. it sucks cos it just sucks. i am never gonna take a sony erricson phone again. anyway i did not get to donate blood cos the nurse say my veins too small. whatever. =)

broken promise

ok i broke my promise cos i did not complete my economics essay. anyways today was a very tiring day for no reason that i can identify. i slept pretty early last night so there is no reason or maybe thats the reason cos i normally have late nights. sleeping too much makes me tired too. yes i do agree i have a weird body system but thats just me. well maths lesson was hilarious today end up we only did like 5 mins of real lesson and he was crapping away about some no point stuffs. thats mr mathai for you. ok i am gonna stop here. nothing much to write. gonna donate blood tmr hope i can donate! anyway yuneng says she is not going nafa le. yayness cos if she leaves i will miss her a lot haha.although she always fake pinches me. SRC is due tmr and i am not sure if the way i did it is right, argh its counted so i cannot anyhow do. GP is getting on my nerves. by the way i got 7/10 for my first economics essay. yeah good start. there is PE tmr and i really hope it will not be too tiring. argh i am feeling the stress now, although i am starting to catch up but there is just so much to do everyday and so little time to spare. if only i can have 48 hours a day then maybe i can cope better, but 24 hours means 24 hours so no point lamenting. the road ahead might be long and tough but i will prove it to myself that i can walk the road so wish me luck. =)

PS:i am too lazy to do paragraphing so everything is in a whole chunk.

ITS APRIL FOOL'S DAY!

its the 1st of april today. haha april fool didn't kena trick today cos i think most forgot. for the previous few years i sure kena one,without fail. its either i got smarter or ppl no longer feel like tricking ppl anymore. lol i hope i have gotten smarter.

anyways in school now. in the laggy computer lab. haha the rest having chinese lesson. i also want chinese lesson. anyway the bird we save yesterday was gone, as in not dead but its missing, someone must have disposed off it. *sobsob* its boring and i have two economics essay to finish off by tmr but i am seriously not in the mood for doing it. nvm shall try to complete it by today. i promise i will do it later. today PE was mock 2.4 haha fail by like 4 mins but i got to run with sinlin. so it feels like its back to css days when we always run together, only that there is no more zh now to force us to run faster. haha kinda miss PE in css. anyway waiting for GP lesson and it is a 1.5 hours lesson today. so its gonna be a very tiring lesson. =(

aw i miss the 4/2 ppl, come to think of it it was the best class i ever had, its was a stressful class but it was a fun class.
i miss the front sit in class and i miss sitting next to my partner.
i miss having a classroom to go back to now that we are like wanderers.
i miss the four of us always trying to irritate our partners.
i miss the way we always ignore the teachers when they ask questions.
i miss having to run to the canteen every recess and lunch.
i miss our fabulous teachers and the way they teach.
all in all i miss every single minute and every single second of life in css.

PS: this is a long post cos i am trying to pass time and the time is passing damm slowly so i typed a lot of things cos if i have nothing to do then i will feel guilty for not completing my economics essay. argh i am crazy nowadays.fancy feeling guilty for this reason. haha. madness.

we saved a bird!!!

Well, today in school we saw a bird lying the ground near the dustbin, the feathers were gone, the eyes were bleeding, the wing was like out of shape, and according to kisnaa and gilbert, the neck was breaking. In other words it was immobilised. Although we were disgusted, we decided to ask gilbert and kisnaa to pick it up, so they used a piece of cardboard to scoop it up and me gilbert kisnaa adeline and vera brought it to the general office. We saw mr mathai and he just said he got something to do then he walked away. (Tsk Tsk...where is the love?) Anyway, there was nothing much we can do and the office lady gave us a box to put the bird in and we left it somewhere slightly higher to prevent any cats from getting it. I think it is still gonna die in the end but at least it will not be eaten or further injured. Sad we can't do much to help. Anyway because of this we were all late for mother tongue lesson.

PS: i seriously no longer know what u want or what u are trying to do, will u pls kindly enlighten me? it kills me inside to see things get to this state.

perplexed!

shouldn't contentment be the best of policies? why are you always reaching for more then? really, is there a need? it dosen't hurt to reach for the stars, but are you following your heart?

PRATA PLANET and SAKURA!

we shared rotijohn after our own pratas. yummy!

finished spick and span

prata family unite!

haha hungry ppl...

Went Parta Planet in Clementi for dinner on Friday. WOW! Its was yummy man. Haha a baby in the shop nearly caused adeline to die cos he was screaming away for no reason. LOL.

Went Sakura on Saturday night with my family. Ate like not much but i was pretty full. Haha i went at7.30 pm and its happend to be earth hour at 8.30 till 9.30 pm.I was like half expecting the lights to be off halfway through dinner. LOL. But it remained on, so not fun. By the way, my slippers broke half way and i had to drag my leg to the buffet and my table the whole night, then i had to drag my feet the whole way home. Haha, my reaction was like pure shock when it broke and i guess i scared my mum with my expression half way through dinner. Hilarious was the word to describe the whole meal thanks to my sister. We were like laughing throughout the meal and my mom was like shooting looks at us.

Its Sunday night now and i am having pre-monday blues. Haha its my way of preparing for the real monday blues. Okay but i have to admit its useless cos it not only did not help to mitigate my monday blues and i have to go through the bules twice. Haha. Anyway, waiting to print my geog notes now. Gotta behave during geog lessons now, in case mr lim gets pissed off enough to give me a zero for my AP. Haha.

first day of blog!

okay lets be organised bout this
Firstly, i haven blogged for ages cos i stupidly deleted the previous blog and damm regretted it so i am back now!
Secondly, i am in the school com lab now and the com screen is so huge that i have to sit in a very awkwad position to prevent ppl from seeing what i am doing. So much for privacy, i am publishing this anyway.
Thirdly, its friday today and i am going for dinner with ade audrey and yuneng later. Going mr prata to eat prata for dinner. Though i don't really think i will be full with only prata.
Fourthly, i had Pe today and its is fun but damm tiring, so i am feeling very lazy now. Very very lazy, and i mean it.
Lastly, waiting for Pw lecture now. Oh ya i got like only 61/100 for a grammar test that is supposedly of "primary school level". Haha find it so funny.
Ok end of post. Going to slack till 4pm now. =)